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Tuesday, January 26, 2010, 04:04 a.m. Kate Moss Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels Nothing. Wednesday, January 20, 2010, 09:20 a.m. NZN I tend to blog during the insomniac hours before I go sleep with the sun up. The recent 12 days of managing NZN has been pretty taxing with working at 5pm everyday, mundane + routinely with the slight stress. What's bugging me (even though it is the littlest of concerns, like an obsessive compulsion that gets to me) is the other scoopies I 'manage'. It's hard because our r/s started as friends and now I boss them around. It's annoying because I go to the shop every single day and when they do their absolute least to help me, it irritates me. Then I obsess about whether I'm being anal and unreasonable or really they're taking advantage of the situation. 9 more days of shit to take, considering I've already worked a total of 90+ hours..  This is apt in so many ways Oh yes I've also been extending my flair in the baking section that is, my successful batch of EGG TARTS! Off to more skilled and satisfying baked salivating goods :D Sunday, January 10, 2010, 03:53 a.m. You Know Me I hate growing up. I love to worry about what to eat during recess, what shows are on tonight, what I'm having for dinner, what time am I going to sleep. And the only subjects I studied were: English, Chinese, Mathematics and Science. The occasional Health Education and Civics and Moral Education (HAHAHA). When these were the only routine in my life and the only thoughts in my head. Note that there was no person involved. AT ALL. Well maybe except for the ones cooking my meals. I used to be able to confront situations with minimal damages but in the past year I've learnt two new skills. Avoidance and denial. Avoiding the matters that affect me and denying the person a chance of even friendship. In short, how to cut someone out of my life. It's not like I hate the new way I handle stuff and however shocking it sounds, it makes my guts go crazy inside out like food poisoning only there's no purgatory method other than insomnia.  Saturday, January 9, 2010, 04:11 a.m. Supermassive Black Hole I hesitated to archive 2009 for the great trip I had in September, but with my sleep (I wouldn't say deprived) cycle in retard mode I'm just waiting for the neurotransmitters in my brain to tell me.. something enlightening. To experience some kind of epiphany. Okay, in a nutshell. 2009: A year of loss, discovery and very limited self-realisation. The world is a huge soul sucking mass. Society would be my living hell, non-figuratively. The irony is that 2008 was a year of cherishing everything and everyone around me, past and present. Oh, how life changes how we think, perceive and act. Also, I had the most smashing New Year's Eve celebration at Sensation. What I found most exhilarating is the display and decoration put to my $155- worth every penny, bro. Secretly, I'm trying to push my mind to the state where the lack of rest can take me. Right now, I'm close to 48 hours w/o sleep. |